siMplE vS myStEry

i hate....

2011-01-05T00:11:00.002+08:00

我讨厌我自己...
那种无可自拔的感觉又回来了...
明明1年多过了，也试着...就因为那一天...
haha....我真的不应该再去想有的没的了...注定，果然在他字典才有...
不应该再打扰自己的思绪...

riPPles in lifE....

2011-01-03T15:43:00.002+08:00

there's been almost 1 year the ripples almost get out from my life when i connected to u....
i dun like the ripples because it disturb me....
it disturb my sight, my mind, my smile, everything....
i should know that its quite impossible since u ald misunderstood the target from the beginning....
i dindnt post out any post since that and now,i'm bac.....
i hope this ripples may ful-fil and in deep of my heart i know that its quite impossible....
yet,i feel that i'm stupid and i'm nothing to u..........

Tagged by ling fei!!^^

2009-01-21T19:39:00.002+08:00

What did you do in 2008 which you've never done before?
Worked as a promoter,went for form6 at st.michael, went in KMPK(Perak Matriculation), outing with friends, invite friend to stay at my house, become a bit crazy....haha

Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I hope that everyone that I know will be haPPy for the whole year and may evryone's dreams come true!! I will work hard to achieve my target....

Did anyone close to you gave birth?
My aunt

Did anyone close to you die?
Nope

What countries did you visit?
Thailand,Singapore...........

What would you like to have in 2009 which you lacked in 2008?
Hardworking,determination,braveness.....

What date in 2008 will remain etched in your memory, and why?
26th May(entered matrics),24th October(my birthday),and others that i cant mentioned them out now

Wat was your biggest achievement of the year?
Emm,dont know

What was your biggest failure?
Playful

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yup,serious food poisoning in matrics till cant walk....

What was the best thing you bought?
Shoes??Shirts??Nope

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Emm,no idea....

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
I depressed??sometimes but cant category as depressed because normally just for a moment only

Where did most of your money go?
Food!!haha

What did you really, really, really get excited about?
Knew many friends that I appreciated so much!!

What song will remind you of 2008?
Westlife's If I Let U Go

Compared to last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
Sadder more about 15%

b) thinner of fatter?
sure fatter!!very obvious

c) richer or poorer?
cant think bout it coz my money from my parents

What do you wish you've done more of?
Exercise more,study more,hardworking more!!

What do you wish you've done less of?
Sleep,eat,play...

Did you fall in love in 2008?
Is that fall in love??I oso dont know

What was your favorite TV program?
Too much!!

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope

What was the best book you've read?
Emmm....cant remember the title

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Lee hom's music...hoho

What did you want and get?
Nothing

What did you want and not get?
4 flat

What was your favorite film this year?
No idea also....haha

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
18th,my friends gave me a great surprise during study week

What was the one thing that made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Knew more people and learned new thingss

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Normal and simple

What kept you sane?
.................

What celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
lee hom and calvin from fahrenheit

What political issue stirred you the most?
The lost of quite many places of BN

Who did you miss?
My mum!!

Who was the new best person you met?
Everyone that I meet

Tell us a valuable lesson you learnt in 2008:
Try everything and be brave for your purpose....Never give up easily and dont be lazy

TAG:
haha,lazy 2 tag others already

taGGed by liNg fEi!!

2008-12-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

01. what is the most important thing in your life?
Family,friends and my dearest ppl which will appeared sooner and sooner....

02. what is the last thing you bought with your own money?
Char kuew tiao at night market.....

03. where do you wish to get married?
Havent think about it for now....

04. how old do you think you will get permanently owned by your lover?
Emm,depends on fate...haha

05 are you in love?
Those who understand me,nt now already......

06. where was the last restaurant you had dinner at?
A reataurant at my place....

07. name the latest book you bought?
Perhaps my references books i think

08. what is your full name?
Chiah Hui Lin

09. do you prefer mother or father?
Mother....

10. name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time?
Calvin Chen,haha

11. christina or britney?
Emm,nope.......

12. do you do your own laundry?
Yup,absolutely!!

13. the most exciting place you want to go?
Paris and Greece........

14. hugs or kisses?
A bit grEEd,both!!^^

15. point out five things about the person who tagged you
~Cute
~Sweet
~Buddy in KMPK
~Serious
~Responsible

16. eight things i’m passionate about
*listen to music
*eat
*watching movie o drama
*play badminton and basketball
*play chinese chess
*read novels
*dance,haha(unbelievable?)
*coloring something

17. eight books i have read recently
~mathematic reference book
~biology reference book
~chemistry lecture note book
~mathematic tutorial book
~distionary
~i think thats all for recent

18. eight songs i’ve been listening over and over again
*lee hom (forever love)
*lee hom (only 1)
*SHE (sky grey)
*A mei (i want haPPiness)
*JJ (zhi dui ni shuo)
*JJ (yi qian nian yi hou)
*JJ (jian jian dan dan)
*JJ (qi dai ai)

19. eight things i learned this year
~Friendship
~Hardworking
~Serious
~Love from different sides
~Challenge
~Appreciate
~Miss
~Dun trust others easily

20. persons you tag
*Jeromefo
*Ashley

hoLidAy!!!

2008-12-27T22:58:00.014+08:00

soRRy ya...
finaLLy I back home...
miSS my home so much coz last time didnt back during rAyA...
i went zhiling's house 4 holiday at Penang.........

then there was UNGA , a celebration of culture of different country....
there were exhibition and show.......
my recent lecture hall gt theme country:JAPAN...

the exhibition is nice enough but the show got a bit bored and troubled due to some technical error caused by certain people that dont want us to show.....
during that particular week,i join paint ball game with my frens and we won.....
cOOl!!
feel like wanna play it again.....
it was really adventurous and fun!!!
with shOOting and hide skiLLs all together........
haha......

emm,last wEEk i went outing with my frens at matrics to celebrate junsin's 18th birthday.....
a surprise for her.....
1st we just like normal outing....
den we watched a latest movie titled BOLT...
cOOl,fuNNy and touching oso....
i gt drop my tears,haha....
its a nice movie.......
and then we went shopping separately,kangli and i went to bought card and cake.....
at 2.30,all of us wait a food court except kangli and i pretend late coz we brought the cake and need to assure where the others sat...
then,i went and pretend i shopping separately with kangli while kangli wait at down floor...
after that,i said wanna went find her and both of us prepare the cake with candles with word HAPPY BIRTHDAY on it....
then its a celebration ceremony lo..........
our present was a MILK TEDDY wallet........

dat day also chinese DONG ZHI festival.....
my fren,zhuoying brought me few tangyuan from her frens....
so touch when i ate the tangyuan because i thought cant ate it till i back......
somemore the tangyuan not bad,shocked by it was made by boys....cool
on wednesday,finally,during the x'mas eve,i back my dear home....
no...
should be said that back on x'mas day coz reached at around 1o'clock in the morning in dark...
haha..........
santa claus still havent give me my dreamed present........
but nevemind,i will wait patiently until the "present" appear one day.........
the day after that i went to cut my hair till short......
long time already since standard i never cut my hair that short..........

feel relieve..........
emm,i think thats all for this time........
going out to celebrate with my frens.........

assignments!!

2008-11-20T09:29:00.002+08:00

this weeks i got lots of assignments waiting me to be done.........
english survey,biology assignment,and loads of tutorial works......
sometimes feel that the atmosphere is stiffing....
but anyway,i will try my best to finish all.....
haha....
this weekend i'm going to watch movie again with my friends.........
we are watching 3 drama actually..
japanese "hua yang shao nian shao nv", taiwanese "bu liang xiao hua" and hong kong's "yu di tong hang"........
cool...!!!
i entered new lecturer hall and new tutorial class....
there are totally 3 chinese including myself..........
huh.....
the new lecturer hall is damn cold.....sometimes cant concentrate.......
although now i have a fixed lecturer hall,but its cold inside there..........
and i miss all my frens in t46.......
but what can we do???
all become the fact already.......
juat can adapt myself with new environment and classmates........

sem break!!!

2008-11-02T22:41:00.020+08:00

Finally,sem I finish already......
And now I'm enjoying holiday at home....
Actually its nothing special because I got MUET test this coming Saturday.....
I would like to thank all my dear friends and roommates in KMPK because of giving me an unforegetable 18th birthday inside there....
The day before my birthday,one of my indian roommate,Visha going back to KL to celebrate Deepavali....
So I guess that maybe they wont celebrate for me.....
The surprise thing is suddenly lingfei called me....
She said that she wanted back her chemistry notes that I borrowed from her before....
And I never doubt anything....I just bring the notes went down to her hostel at another block.....
When she saw me,she asked something about my Muet test because I took my Muet speaking test that day....
So I just told her eerything.....
And she said I tired came down from 4th floor,so she said lets chat more for a while....
I just felt a little bit weird because she acts like abnormal.......
But I just cover it by think that maybe she wanted to relax after study pauns of books....
After a while,she said she wanted went up,so we dismiss and I went up back to my room lo....
And I saw Visha standing outside,I thought she wanted to back already....
When she saw me,she asked:why you back so fast???
And I answered:I chatted there for a while already...is it fast??
Then she asked me to open the door using my key because according to her,another 2 roommates leave her outside cz they jealous she can go back home....
Once I opened the door,oh no!!!
There's balloons and cake and card in front of me!!!
Then only I realise that they "pakat" with lingfei already...............
Its a big surprise for me....
Somemore the laptop is stand by there to take my photo...haha

haPPy!!!^^
The night before my birthday,actually I am waiting for the time to approach 12o'clock and my friends' message also.....
Quite stupid.....haha
But I do that thing,then when time pass by,only ling fei wish me......
All my dear junior and friends that knowed before entered matrics wish me already......
But I feel something lost in my heart because no one except lingfei wish me.....
Around 1 o'clock,zhuoying and laiteng wish me....
But their wishes as simple as possible,somemore they mention sorry for late coz busying final.....
I guess it already.....
The next day.....I'm in bad mood........
During lunch time,I meet zhiling.....
She so cool until not much reaction when she saw me....
That time I felt more down..........
I went tutorial class to study with my roommate,CT......
She was quite weird that day....
She keep on borrow my handphone and said that she wanted to bluetooth songs.....
Then she asked name of my lecturer hall's boys name......
I felt weird but I never doubt anything...........
Then,she went mini market to buy ice-cream..........
After she back,her action more weird but still I cant understand..........
She backed room after that,leave me alone.........
Suddenly,I receive kangli's message and she asked whether want go dinner together or not that night...........
I just said depends because I'm still full that time...............
When I back room,Ct scolded me because I bought a burger back room and she said she wait for me to go down and buy food together.............
Then i told kangli that I need to accompany Ct down there and buy food first....
The weird thing is she said she went down together with me................
Actually,that time I guess something will happen down there already but I dont know what they going to do...........
When I reach there,oh my god!!!
All my friends were there!!
Zhiling,lingfei,laiteng,zhuoying,junsin,chiangsan,weibin,yeheng n siew chung.......
That time only I realise that actually they "pakat" already...........
I'm quite surprise...............
With a big tiramisu cake,and a special card they done for me with everyone's signature,and a special slide show......
Haha....I'm so haPPy that time............
I thought nobody remember my birthday....
But they really gave me a big surprise........
Then only I knowed that zhiling actually quite shocked when she saw me during lunch time because the cake just there and she scared I will doubt something.........
And kangli explained all the weird things before this to me...........
For example like few days before that she havent change class clothes even its night time.......
haha......
I want to say "THANK YOU" to all my dear friends and roommates for giving me such a meanigful birthday celebration because no anyone give me such a surprise during my birthday.....
Thanks thanks thanks a lot for you all!!
Love you all so much!!
It will become one of my sweet memory in KMPK!!!

SEM I going to finish!!!

2008-10-13T11:28:00.003+08:00

few more weeks,SEM I in matrics going to finish....
And according to what i knowed,every lecturer hall no matter bio or phy or acc going to break...
They say split and reshufftle all the tutorial and lecturer hall class.....
Actually they maybe worried about the imbalance of number of students in every tutorial class....
But in my opinion,i think that they should also care about the feelings of students...
My friends around me all dont feel like want to split and get into new hall or even new classes....
This is because we need to make ourself be familiar again wth new people and new hall with new relationship and new environment....
And takes time to get knowed with new same lecture's hall mates........
huh.....
Why they want to do like that???
I dun wan!!
Nobody wan also.....
Final is coming....and I'm going to gove a small surprise(quite lame) also la....haha,to all my lecturer hall chinese boys....
Just take it as a farewell joke,hehe...
I dont know why...
Feel bad today....
Maybe yesterday lack of sleeping time because we were planning something...
haha.....

Penang trip!!^^

2008-10-02T20:57:00.004+08:00

haPPy raya!!!
Yesterday and today were raya festival of Malaysia….
And I celebrate it too!!
Please don’t misunderstood, I mean that this is a common festival of Malaysia and celebrated by public….
Thus, I went for a Penang trip with my family….
Huh!!
Many matters happened during this trip….
I gave off 2 first time of doing somethg….
Please don’t misunderstood again….
Look at my description….
Yesterday, we departed from our home at 8o’clock in the morning…
When we arrived there, we went Queensbay Mall…
We took our breakfast there at Roti Boy….
YUMMY!! YUMMY!!
After that,we went shopping but not much things we bought as nothing really attracts us…
I wanted to buy a new shoes there but none of them attracted me…hehe
We shop there for about 1 and half hour only…
Then, we went Plangi Mall(if my spelling was correct), my mum wanna bought a handbag there,but again,none of them attracted her so much….as many of the brands haven’t promoted new products of their brand….
But POPULAR there really huge!!!!
Around 1o’clock, we went for lunch and matters started now….
When I was in queue buying food, my mum them waited for me….
After eating, suddenly we saw that lots of people around a table….
Due to the “enthusiasm”, we went there and had a look….
Oh my god!!
There was a chinese girl who started to cramp every parts of her body…
This is a type a disease but Iim not really sure its scientific name….
She surrounded by a group of boys and a aunty putting a silver spoon into her mouth…
According to my knowledge in St.John Ambulance, this action was correct because if not,she will cramp at her teeth and will bite off her tongue and die…..
So, what can I did that time was massaged her legs especially feet to enchance the blood circulation of her body……
Her condition was really dangerous because she was unconscious and the aunty keep on called her name and my sisters and I keep on massage her feets…..
After half an hour, finally her legs started got temperature because during that critical time,her legs were cold like ice…
Then, ambulance reached and we continued our shopping….
According to that aunty,the girl 15 years old only and that group of boys just knowed her….
They even don’t know her phone number….
Huh!!
Really dangerous….
This is my 1^st time of try to save others life at public place…
If the aunty never realized about her disease, those boys would never mentioned about it and she will be in coma or even die!!!
We shopping there for about 2 hours and then we went to book hotel….
We book the Sunway Hotel around komtar there….
We took a rest and then we went to play at swimming pool inside hotel….
Hehehe…
I think that the swimming pool filled with my sisters and my laughing….haha
That night, we went gurney there and took our dinner at关仔角….
Lots of foods there….
We ate “lok lok” but special with it is fried,laksa,pot rice,apung malik,and oyster fried with egg…
Delicious…..
After dinner, we went for a walk at the street near to sea…
Night scene really nice…
Many little kids playing bubbles there…if couples go there,it must be romantic….hehe
When we went for car, my dad saw that there was a paper on windscreen of car…
Oh my god!!
It’s a “saman”!!!
But just our car gt only,the others car didn’t got also………
The next day we went penang’s police station wanted to pay for that saman, and my dad asked why only our car got the saman only and they just simply said that if they saman,they will saman all the cars all together because of parking error…..
But I really checked all the cars, only our cars gt the saman only……
How come???
And that’s my 1^st time entered police station….
Actually its was not so horrible like what I imagine before this….
Haha…..
Am I brave enough???hehe^^
Then, we departed back…
No, shouldn’t said back,should explain by went to Taiping to visit my grandfather and my grandmother…..
This time,we didn’t cross the Penang Bridge, because we used ferry…..
Not much cars today…….
My grandmother was not at home because she followed my uncle’s family to Genting…
This is my 1^st time visited my grandfather after he back from operation in hospital….
My mum said he looked better than the time he was in hospital….
Of course la,I understand the feeling of staying in hospital because I experienced it before……
After that, we went to a place which was very packed with people to 拜九皇爷….
Wow!!
My eyes fulled with tears and it rolled down along my cheek when I “bai bai”….
But I knowed already because every year I also repeated the same situation….haha
We took out lunch there , all vegetarian that day….
When we eating our lunch,suddenly it rains heavily…..
Its quite normal also because according to my dad,every year during this time(birthday of 九皇爷),raining was normal but I don’t know the reason………
Before we leaved,we bought vegetarian’s pau for dinner….
Then, we back Gerik!!

Raya's holiday!!

2008-09-26T19:58:00.012+08:00

Long time didnt update my blog ler....

Let me explain all the things happens in KMPK after the opening of mid-sem break...

The 1st week i had a bio practical which was dissection of rat...

I was quite nervous the day before the experiment.......

On the moment I went and took the rat,my hand was "shivering"...haha

And the 1st cut on it,I just keep on said sorry sorry and sorry......

I felt so sorry to it....

This was not my rat...

I didnt took photo of my pity rat.......

That week I went outing with my friends and my lecturer hall mates........The following few days was Mooncake Festival....

And there was gathering to celebrate this special day...

That night,I went celebrate this special festival with my friends....

Then we meet my lecturer hall mates...

We chat that night and I found out something that night.....T_T

After 11o'clock,the guard chased us back but we(girls) continued our chating down there in front of P3....until 12.30 o'clock....haha

Then,the week after that I was quite busy with my bio model....

We just started on Tuesday and finish almost 3/4 that night also.........

can u all guess wats that???

hehe....

After finish that model,that weekend we celebrated ling fei's birthday in Cafe C.....because lai teng and zhuo ying going back KL that week.....

We present her a cutie cutie doll...and a SPECIAL card ...^^

then that week we went outing again cz "shou xing po" wanna went outing........

The following week was last week which my parents came visited me and again,I went outing.....

I call kang li and lai teng together......

The week we going back,I was so ashamed....

During Bio's lecture class,I was sleepy because the night before that I chat with kang li in my room till 3o'clock....

Then during class,I slept with my face faced the table...

Suddenly I heard lots of laughing.....

Kang li called me and when I woke up,I saw my blured blured face on the screen....

The lecturer keep on zoom and zoom and zoom...

I dont know what to react........

So ashamed.........

Somemore not once,few minutes later the lecturer focused on me again....

So...........SHY!!!

Everyone laugh at me.....
huh!!!

Then,the day before back home,both of them came and slept in my room....

We chat until 4o'clock in the morning...........
Then I now sit in front of my computer lo....!!^^

对你有感觉（江美琪）

2008-08-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

对你有感觉歌词-江美琪(Chiang, Mei Chi) 江美琪-对你有感觉
我曾深刻体会
对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你给我安慰
看你失落的脸
又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈
眼角的泪它给过谁
伤透了心也无所谓
我会愿意静静地陪在你身边
如果说爱已不可为
那我宁愿藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备
跨越爱的界线
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退被爱包围
谁犯规
都狼狈
谁能解围
让一切完美
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我拥抱瞬间
不后悔
这暧昧星光唯美
把爱放心里面

nice song!!!^^

falling sick again...haiz!!!

2008-08-30T23:11:00.001+08:00

hate! Hate! Hate!!
Why always falling sick…
Just recovered last time during holiday about 2 weeks ago,then yesterday got food poisoning……
I think most probably is the dinner I took the day when got BIO quiz………
Feel very pening and non-stop vomiting and diarrhea..
The thing started at yesterday early in the morning…
I got stomachache and went toilet…
I thought just normal stomachache only….
But the matter continue until 7 o’clock in the morning……..
Then I feel like very pening when wanted went to class but I forced myself to go class….
Then,when waiting in examination hall for 1st lecturer’s class,I vomit once….
And I really felt that not really well….
Then I went to clinic to consult the doctor….
But it was stupid and terrible!!!
When I went ther,I go registered and I think that after some Chinese students will be my turn to consult the doctor because I saw their names on the registration book…
Then suddenly some lecturer came to take their blood test result…
The registration counter girl let them went inside without any registration with turn….
And I with my heavy and pening head and wanna vomit that time wait there for 45 minutes……..
That time I really pening and feel like wanna sleep there already………haiz!!!!
Then finally its my turn and the consultion time not more than 5 minutes only….
I back to examination hall I guess that maybe the lecturer will think that I purposely want ponteng his class…
Then after that we got class at a lecturer hall which is damn cold…..
Before that I went vomit again at toilet……
During the class,cant concentrate at all…
Just blured blured copy all the notes with my pening and heavy head….
But luckily I finish class after that and direct go back and sleep……….
I vomit again the medicine I took which make my mouth feel bitter and tasteless….
Huh….
I think I slept from 10o’clock till 4o’clock…..
Then my friends came visited me……….
That time felt like my body like a heater with the rising temperature and head still pening pening like that…..
Then I didn’t went for dinner and library also…..
Huh!!!
Hope I recovered as fast as possible because it is really terrible terrible and terrible when falling sick!!!
I don’t want to sick again!!!

going back KMPK this Sunday...

2008-08-22T21:00:00.003+08:00

need to go back KMPK(matrics) this Sunday lo...
actually,this holiday i'm doing nth at home.....
just go yam cha with old friends and had a farewell party with my teacher(miss chong)....
never study...emm,not at all,but just a little bit only....
everyday almost doing the same thgs...
wake up,eat,watch TV,sports,..........
huh...after back need to start again busy and bored life there...
dunno why...always feel bored there...
study study study...but i'm quite lazy oso de...haha
going to have quiz and experiment next week...
the experiment is "operation" for the rat...
oh my god...
i think mb the whole KMPK smelly with rat gua....
errrkks.....
anyway,wish to meet my dear friends again but need to leave my lovely home again...
gud luck for me ya...
and all my friends at every corner of this world...

戒不掉

2008-08-14T01:43:00.002+08:00

黑夜将城市笼罩
想念蔓延在细胞
想你的拥抱
你的微笑
想到快要疯掉
爱你到莫名其妙
上了瘾无可救药
没有你
会死掉
我不再开心的笑
痛苦在胸口燃烧
在你离开以后
寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告
才掉进你的圈套
现在知道
却放不掉
世界慢慢的变老
戒不掉对你的依靠
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗
相思的煎熬
戒不掉你对我的好
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我
我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对你的依靠
就是戒不掉你对我的好

back to P3!!^^

2008-07-30T20:26:00.003+08:00

yahuh...
last week we back to P3 already...
feel so miss my room...
the feel was totally different with the feel living in the apartment..
although the days live in apartment was quite haPPy also..
but at the end,i prefer the live in my room also...
together with my roommates...
miss them so much...
that day,i went back to room after my class...
on friday,my class just until 10 o'clock only...
then i went studied in library until 12 o'clock,then i went for my lunch together with my lecturer hall's mate,kang lih...
we chat a lot of thgs...about the shifting of our belongings...our friends....our homwtown...jokes...
lots of thgs....^^
then,i went to clean my room..
oh my god...!!!
so many dust...
cant imagine...
but its logic la because long time we din back there le...
i clean my room with another roommate,the we go shift our thgs from apartment to 4th floor...
its a long journey ...
tiring....
we just shift some little thgs ..
the the next day we go and shift other thgs using the van services in matrics..
so ashamed...
that time i was sleeping with my friend,ying and teng..
then suddenly my roommate came and said that vaN came ald...
we were tired and quickly go upstair to ask whether the van can come down o not to shift our thgs because many of them really heavy...
then funny thgs started happened...
we just saw a van and din bother anythg,direct go and ask the uncle whether can come down or nt...
bt its nt the van of matrics...
it brings us went around the matrics near boy's hostel and then he told us need to pay RM5 each/...
we were like....shocked...!!
hehe...like a stupid girl,we asked that uncle whether can we reject it or not because we never know that it needs to pay....
we thought it was matrics van and blur blur simply go on that bus...
haha...
feel so ashamed leh...
that why la..
when we go on the van,all the other girls put their aside and never put their thgs onto the van also...we still feel like we have take their turn ald...
but the fact is...
haha...funny.....^^
then we wait in the apartment patiently until 2 o'clock...
wahaha...
finally the van come ald...
we put all the thgs onto the van,then it send them to P3,then we need to shift our thgs on 4th floor...
oh my god...
terrible..!!
luckily...i gt friends help me...
really feel thx a lot to them ...
if no i feel like the next day i will be a painful girl ald...
the whole body pain like last time when shift out of P3...
after that i go to cafe to enjoy freshing "ABC",ice kacang....
cool...
and i meet him...
eating alone at cafe...
dont bother about him...
that night...i sleep early and so because i'm so tired...
the next day i went outing with kang lih...
we went jusco...
during the back time,somethg occur also....
oh my god...
feel so shy...
during the back time,both of us just follow the aunt's inform and wait at the place when we go down of bus before...
but actually it is not the place...
then we quickly ran to the bus station...
the bus full of ppl....
somemore many chinese..
all of them look at us and i'm not sure that whether they joke at us or not...
but i think they will do so lo coz we were running while laughing...
like crazy gilrs only...
haiz...
then we wait for next bus and then stand on that bus also but at least that bus was not so packed with ppl la...
huh

landslide...huh

2008-07-15T11:23:00.002+08:00

oh my god...
there was landslide last week in KMPK...
and the matter just behind my hostel...
all of us worried...
last friday,d felo ask us to gather at DSG(Dewan Serba Guna)
then they just told us how to escape if there are any emergency...
so my friends and i thought there will be any fire practice on this few days la...
but who knows after that they ask all of the other girls back,jus all the girls live in the same block with me left..
then they just told that there were landslide behind our hostel,ask the girls at back wing move that night also,
i stayed at the side wing also need to pack all the thgs and always stand by ...
that night...
omg...
so scarry ...
somemore it started to rain...
i cant slept...
until i was too tired and fall asleep unconsciously...
then,suddenly,at 2.30 in the midnight...
the siren ringed...
all of us urged to move to library and sleep there that night...
its was cold and scarry that night...
i keep on cry n cry bcoz i wonder whether need to inform my parents o not...
i dont w a n them to worry about me but all of my roommates told their parents ald...
when i brave enough to call home,my tears rolling down again...
i cant...
then the next day....
v informed by lecturer that v need to move to another matrics...
i dun want!!
i w an to stay here...
there were lots of memory here...
and i dun wan to shift.....
all of us crying ourside the library and the lecturer was surprised and started to say that that just a survey to determine how many students want to shift...
that day also...
omg,feel like i been old 4 years a nd years..
v packed all of the thgs and shift them down from 4th floor to ground floor,move to examinatuon hall 4th floor,then our places occupied by stupid person,then v need to shift all the thgs to the 3rd floor...
omg,,,,,its was so terrible that day...
the next day all of my body feel like very pain...
cannot tahan ald...
then...
i continue next time because times up ald....
keep on pray for me that there was no more heavy rain and all of us no need to shift to other matrics...
pray 4 me and my friends also....

sick....

2008-06-28T12:01:00.002+08:00

dis week got so many ppl falling sick...
my lecturer hall's mates...
and my roommate also...
suddenly her fever turn to serious...
make us so worry about her coz she had fever b4 this and never recover..
then next week got quiz...
i wonder whether she can handle that o not...
she was lying on her bed and having rest...
we jus can change the towel for her half an hour once to lower her body tempetature...
omg...
her hand was so hot...
same condition as me as last year when i was having fever the day after the accident until need to stay in hospital4 3days....
its really terrible...
i understand her feeli8ng...
somemore v wil feel like sudden hot and sudden cold....
huh...
mb inside here feel like...
"wu nai"...
everuday doing the same thg and eating the same thg...
sometimes feel like no appetide to eat...
somemore it is not cheap...
and 2morow is another roommate's birthday...
v order the cake ald...
but then dunno can celebrate o not bcoz the little girl sick ald...
huh huh huh huh huh

spending a lot of money..

2008-06-18T21:59:00.002+08:00

If you are my friend,then you will know that i didnt eat sushi before this...
I hate the smell of the fish...
Maybe be it is because I have a bad experience before that..
I buy sushi introduced by my friend at a place..
They were packed already...
But when i try it,oh my god...
I dont like the smell...
but...
last week when i outing to ipoh parade with my friends,
they wanted to go to Sushi King for their lunch...
I just follow them with an idea that I go and have rice or wudong mee there...
Once I try the sotong ,the red colour one...
oh...it was so nice,...
delicious...^^
i never expect that taste...
then I try a really really small pieces of salmon fish...
oh...nice also...
It dont have any smell that I hate before this...
smells like a fishball smell..
Oh my god...
I'm getting crazy there...
I just realize that the fish from Sushi King must be fresh so that it taste yummy...
next time I will ask my family to try there as they hate sushi also before this...
i sure that after they try the sushi at Sushi King,they will totally change their opinion about sushi...
then i go shopping with my friends...
i meet my lecturer hall's mates also...
they were there for outing...
as a conclusion....
I just can said that i spend a lot...
but not mucher than one of my friend la because she bought a "harlo" toys inside Kiroro...
she was so cute and happy when she found harlo...
haha...

haPPy dumPLing day!!

2008-06-09T12:23:00.002+08:00

yahoo!!
yesterday was the chinese dumpling day..
my family came and brought me outing ...
cool and nice.
my friends and i looks like prisoner out of prison...
so excited...
and my mum brought me dumpling...
yummy!!
i miss the flavour so much...*V*
just 4 these this time....

appeal failed...><

2008-06-05T13:02:00.002+08:00

i check my results 4 appeal of jpa today...
and i din got it...
its quite disappointed to saw it although i not put much hope on it..
i'm in matriculation now...
and i need to concentrate here...
but the dont know why..
everyday i feel like tired...
maybe because of i slept late in the night and the woke up early in the morning...
so,normally i never take a nap in the evening time but then now,when i attended the lecturer's class ,i felt sleepy...
its quite terrible because i cant concentrate on what's the lecturer talking about....
and then i'm quite worried about my biology practice as i felt like i dont know how to do everything when i enter the class...
our lecturer said that she was so disappointed with our drawing of diagram...
my drawing were not that gud enough to satisfied ..
i think so..huh

inside maticulation of Gopeng...

2008-06-02T20:41:00.002+08:00

I registered at matrics at Gopeng last week..
And I'm in class of H8T46B...
my class got lots of ppl but then only 3 chinese ...
me n another 2 chinese boys..
in the whole class of lecturer,there is much of chinese but then only 2 girls only..
and then the first week feel like cant catch up with the matter coz i'm the 2nd intake...
they have do lots of things and have orientation..
sometimes when need to rush from a place to another place,i get lost..
its so funny rite but then its the truth..
the 1st intake they know the place ald and i just follow them to other place,sometimes cant reach the class earlier and then i need to sit at the back side...
cant c anythg on the screen...
but then my roommates are quite nice and funny..
oo,my time 4 online at cybercafe inside matric reach ald..
4 my dear friends,get my next info later ya...^^
wishing u all gud luck n 4 myself also...

tired but...nth can do...

2008-05-24T22:02:00.004+08:00

today is really a busy day for me...

I woke up quite late today..about ten o'clock..

then wash my clothes as I just back from Ipoh yesterday...

really tired...

then,my mum bring me to the BSN to create an account for me..

because my appeal for matrics succed already..then go to buy the "baju kurung" and some formal shirts and slacks..

v take a long time in choosing "baju kurung" because there are too many patterns but most of them really malay style..i mean the pictures...

finally,i got 2 sets...

both of them really nice..

one of them sky blue with flowers.another one is light purple with lotus(i think)..

cant post the pic here coz the cabel of my hp left at my cousin's house...>,<

when I back to home,arrange my certs for giving matrics tomorrow...

actually,I got a little bit not really exciting when I know that my appeal was succeed ald..

Its exciting but not as much as I expect before..

Maybe because of I've been close to my house mates and my classmates ald..

My classmates..I'm not knowing all of them but at least those who I've knowed were really nice and funny(shoban,u will laugh when u c this,this is wat I feel bout u,haha^V^) and kind ppl...

then,feeling close to my house mates especially talk bout calvin...

nice guy for me n her also...haha

but wat can I do??

If I dont want go for it,then why I appeal last time??

I just felt like something lost when leaving St.Michael...

Maybe because of put much spirit on it because last thursday and friday departed from grik to ipoh everyday at 4 o'clock early in morning just wanted went to school..

and then just move in the house this monday and then I need to leave this week too...

maybe its my own problem...

I got matrics at gopeng...

My keijie said that I can go to find her if I'm free coz according to her tarc is near to gopeng only...

hopefully I can enjoy my new life in matrics tomorrow...

and maybe my posts would not so fast as before because dunno got pc o not inside there....

scolded again !!

2008-05-14T22:25:00.003+08:00

today,I receive the call from PPD ipoh and told me that I can transfer to ST.Michael already...
so decided to go ipoh to take the letter..
but then everything happens so fAst and unprepare...
I pack my clothes and daily use accesories as fast as I could...
On the way to Ipoh,I got a sudden call from my friend and knowed that she had help me to take the letter...
when everything seems like settled,then problems and problems float up...
Why always wanna scold me??
I got my opinions and just speak it out...
Why blame me??If I'm wrong or I say something incorrect,do correct me..
But why need to scold me and talk like I'm useless....
My tears rolling in my eyes when I heard all of that...
You are not right at all...
So big-headed,thought that everything you said were right,untalkable....and .........
Never concern about others feeling and think carefully before speaking something out......
Everybody think that you are wrong but then you never think back ur fault...
Why there got people like this in this world...
......T_T

枫!!

2008-05-13T20:09:00.003+08:00

乌云在我们心_搁下一块阴影
我聆听寂寞已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美丽的风景
总在回忆_才看得清
被伤透的心不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
激光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
~ 乌云在我们心_搁下一块阴影
我聆听寂寞已久的心情
清晰透明就像美丽的风景
总在回忆_才看的清
在山腰间飘逸的红雨随着北风凋零
我轻轻摇风铃想
唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地……………

its jay's song....i dont know in which cd but when the first time i hear this song....

this song the singing style still jay's style.........

its simple but then its also contain simple touch....

I dont know why....

the touch just go thoroughly to my heart....

simple but touching....

1st day in f6!!

2008-05-12T20:32:00.002+08:00

Today is the first day I put my feet onto another way for further studies...
I'm a bit disappointed when I checked out that i didnt got the JPA..
But nevermind,I already had a prepare in my heart that I wont got it because its really competitive!!
So,I move to Form 6 today!!
I registered at the school today with my friend and we just stayed there and listen the "dead" orientation seminar...
Its really bored........
And then a female teacher gave us the form to fill for the transfer of school....
I'm started wondering.....
Its need to fill in 2 choices for our wanted school...
The first :St.Michael??Sam Tet??
The second: Sam Tet??St.Michael??
I'm wondering which one do I need to write first...!?
And then the address...everybody confusing on this...
Nobody teach us to fill the form although there's wrote the tittle...
But then we are still wondering and ....WONDERING!!
At last,I wrote the St.Michael at the first choices and Sam Tet for the second choice...
I hope I will get the offer as I'm a bit disappointed didnt got the matrics and also the JPA..sigh!!@_@
After that,we got informed that the original offer letter is needed for proceed on the transfer...
But then we have gave to the students who in-charged of registered just now....
So reasonally we wanted it back from the teacher but finally we get the letter back after a mountain of effort..
huh...went here...went there...
wasting our time...
And then about my tuition ...
So ....feeling so "wu nai" with it...
I wanna go for it but its a wave and wave of trouble coming to me...
huh...
sometimes,feeling like i'm useless...
Cant do any decision on vital matters.....
Cares for this...Cares for that....
its just like contradiction in myself.....
And last,maybe my decision was a stupid decision....
I also dont know why i will become like this,....

so....>>>>

2008-04-30T19:27:00.002+08:00

so boring......
so blurred.......
my head so pain.....
so scared.........
so hate.........
so worry........
so ..........
i really dun understand....\
why when someone had did lots of things and cause everybody hate he/she but then he/she still can be so lucky and ....
haiz...><
why??
some one who pasting mask on their face is really difficult to guess what they thinking and what's they going to do next.........
and then they still can be so lucky and got everything they want....
and then after they got what they want,need to come and ask us: d u got ??no ar??so ....
talks like very pity....huh
i wondering no more honest people in this society again??
or those really dissappointed and then getting and getting deep into the way to pasting their mask??

Splash Water day!!

2008-04-15T18:53:00.000+08:00

14 April was the Splash Water Festival(I think) in Thailand ,so my family and I went there that day….

We departed from our home almost 8 in the morning and arrived there at about 9.45

When we just arrived the town, the police there were on duty in early.

The traffic police stand in front of the roundabout and gave order about car’s moving because there were too many cars there.

Mostly came to experience the festival.

When we having our breakfirst,we meet 2 family from our place. They were came for the festival too. All of us in wear of casual:a simple t-shirt and a short pants.(preparing for wet)^^haha!!

Then, we just walk around the town. The festival haven’t start. But we can saw that lots of the streets’ hawker started promote their things: water pistol. Children asking their dad to buy the pistol. I think the hawker can make much profits on that day.

At about 10.30,the festival started.

First, what we saw were a huge number of people walked in the middle of street wearing beach clothes. They were prepared for wet. Then the people beside the street started to sprinkle water towards them.

After a while, I can saw that the streets became so “crazy”.

The youth sit on a lorry and then with a pistol or anything which can sprinkle the water,they started to splash water to verybody they saw. The pity one was those who sit on motorcycle. They were attacked because they will totally wetted. I cant said that they were pity because….they were quite enjoyed when wetted.

The crazier one was some of them use the coloured powder mixed with the water and splashed to everyone and every car. Some put the powder on their face and tried to do the same to others.

I was a bit wetted when I walk through the street. A chinese girl saw that I’m not wetted and she just take up a plastic pipe and sprinkle water to me!! Luckily I ran as fast as I could because the water was coloured !!

And then there were battle at the roads!!

When a lorry with youth meet with another lorry with youth also,they will started battle with splashed water to each other…the streets was filled with screaming and “high” shrieking!!

For me,the most pity one was the police because they were on their duty but the crazy one splash water to them also and put the powder on their face…

How can they do that as the police were cared the safety of them from being injured with vehicles….the armed soldier and police were patrolled all the times to make sure that the safety of country is in control….i’m quite respect them because although the peoples done such to them and also needed to patrol under the hot sun but they still doing their duty well…*V*

We then walked into a shops for escaped from wetted more serious, meanwhile bought some junk food. We bought peanuts of 3 flavour,nuts produced by Thailand(forgot its name), mango,durian cakes,coconut cakes and others with unknown names.

At about 2 in the afternoon, we went for lunch at a restaurant on a hill. We ordered a seafood tomyam, a coconut milk seafood, a “kangkung” with sambal and a papaya salad.

Taste great!! But honestly its too little for 5 peoples to eat!!

After that,we departed to hot spring in Thailand. At there, we bought a packet of “em chun dan” ,it’s an egg of a type of birds. We put it in a place where specific for tourist to boil the eggs. After 15 minutes,the eggs were boiled. The water of that corner was boiling every seconds. So, don’t play play …haha^^

Then ,we went to another place with water which quite hot also but acceptable by human skin. My sisters and I put our legs in. Quite hot but after a while,it just like warm. I heard that this water can improve the circulation of our blood.

After an hour and 30 minutes there, we back to the town and loitering with ….car of course! When we past a place,if there were peoples stand by there to splash the water, we move in slow motion for them to splash us!!haha!! Some of them not really dare to splash us. Maybe they saw our car board number and knowed that we were tourist,then they scared to be so crazy gua…haha!!

In this short tour,I found that the residens there were really crazy that day. Even police they also didn’t scared to splash water to them. In short,this tour was really incredible and amazing!! It showed me that every country got their own special festival….the splash water festival maybe is one of their new year celebration(I think)…If got chance you all must go there once!!

Deepest tranquility in heart !!

2008-04-11T19:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, the Sin Chew Plus set a title named “linden tree” at page 4 & 5.

Its about deep meditation and in Chinese,we called it “禅” .

I wanted to share it here bcoz I found out that the content was really meaningful. Page 4 was about a female artist named Brigittelin (林青霞)，a Hong Kong artist who went for deep meditation 8 years ago. She said that after the 3days meditation with master’s convinced,she felt appreciate to the world and understood an admonition during a situation: face it,accept it,handle it and put it down.

As for me,after reading her experience,I got a new clue about facing our life. Let past by past.

Every time when I suffered about something,I’ll prayed to Buddha. Hope for a guide on solving or else prayed for reducing of my scared and helpless. Maybe people will say that praying cant improve the condition but at least I found a balance and tranquilities in my heart. With this,then I could think out ways to solve a problem with a calm heart and mind.Flowers does make me getting calm and relax...the flower in above picture is one of my favourite flower named Gypsophila elegans Bieb(满天星).

Every night before I fall asleep,I prayed to Buddha to make tomorrows better,give me courages and determination to face problems. I prayed that my family and my friends happy and live in peace.

The page 5(written by sheng yan rabbi) states that self-cultivation is important for people nowadays especially those who always compete with time. It states that sit in meditation half an hour a day is not a waste of time. Instead, it may improve the efficiency of work bcoz a hurry hours make our mind always hurry and cant make up a suitable decisions.

But if you try to sit in meditation just 30 minutes a day,you will find out that its WORTH for our SOUL!!!

back to my working place!!!

2008-04-09T19:09:00.000+08:00

Wow!! Today in the noon,i go and find my friend to go for KFC!!
We got chat lots of thg about studies...
If she cant got the teachers training programme,then will go for f6.....
Normally at ipoh la.....but which sch???still blurred......
n then me,waiting for inform letters.....if really cant got anythg,then akui the nasib and go for f6 lo!
After the eats,i go to the place which i have been work there 4 last 3 months(cant write here 4 reason).....
When just move in few steps,i got saw my 2nd kei jie at downstair.....i know y she there coz there is the opening of fair....so she is quite busy......chatting with her 4 quite a long time.....haha...she is busy but chatting with me about somethg interesting happened....
Hehe!!The guy that v all hated cried the day b4 i go there....coz none of promoter wanna wrote the cashbill 4 him....n him as a person who take much much more salary than promoter(like this u all know that his place) dunno how to write the cashbill,then cried??!!
Oh my god!!
I really want to see him crying......
A big man cry just bcoz of dunno how to write a cashbill,he's a "office man"leh...that mean he works in the office,but v all assume that he just sit n shake his legs inside there only....haha^^
Then i go upstair to find my 1st kei jie...
We have lots of chats bout our recently doing matters!!!
Her boyfriend come gerik 2morow leh....
But cant meet them....
Anyway,when again i back to there as a customer,the feelings are totally different ....
At least no need guarded my the guard everydays .....they just guarded the promoter of xxx department de...not fair!!
Luckily i have resign ....

why???

2008-04-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

i really dont understand....
why people can change after years and years although we have know he or she for a long time especially those who are our family....
why someone can speak something that hurt others so much??
have he or she think about other's feeling when heard this words??
when everybody sure that its was his or her fault,but he/she really dont realise that its really his/her fault...
why!!!
i really angry and disappointed....
but what can i do??
i just can keep it in my heart because i dont want others to know about this.....
he/she hurts everyone who heard his/her words....
how can he/she said like this!!
its really hurt....the hurt is direct go thoroughly to the heart...
i'm really crying for that for about the whole night...
i just told this matter to my "kei jie" because i really want to speak it out....
its very terrible to keep it in my heart....
i really wishing n hope that the same thing would not happens again....
i dont want to see the person that i care and love crying ownself in her room.....
and i just cant do anything.....i dont know how to facing this situation....
i'm just 17....why???